I am here, alone.
To honour my husband.
I clean, I cook, I work, I cry.
I am here, apart.
From my sister and my children –
no longer with the living.
I am here, unanswered.
A God who never hears.
Too ugly for heaven, I guess.
I am here, scarred.
Black cheeks and bleeding face.
He won’t beat me if I listen.
I am here, unreal.
An object to be moved.
You can’t hurt wood.
I am here, confused.
Does she love me back?
No one should love me.
I am here, content.
To find simple joy and faith.
A purple flower in a field.
I am here, loved.
Friends care and husbands change.
I deserve to be loved.
I am here, reunited.
Finding who I am.
I have my children.
I am here, fulfilled.
Forgiven sins and faith renewed.
I am alive!